Medeah

I am trying very hard to count my blessings today and not think so much on things lost. I am not perfect. I have been beating myself up a lot lately and it needs to stop. I am not the perfect wife, mom or anything for that matter. I am who I am and for the most part I do my best. I cannot do it all though. I want to, but it is not possible. I need to prioritize. I need to have a better relationship with my Heavenly Father. There are things I might not ever understand in this life and I am going to try to be okay with that. I feel the need to just stop and breath for awhile. I push myself so hard and then I usually crash equally as  hard which is what has happened, but I am grateful for the crash because it slows me down and makes me realize what is most important. I will count it all joy.

I have been thinking a lot lately about my Mom. She left this earth March 30th 2008. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about her, but I have been missing her so much lately that it hurts. Seriously, I ache to see her and talk to her. I miss how just by her presence she managed to keep our family together. The collapse of our family actually started with the death of my sister but when my Mom was still here it was at least somewhat still intact. I am not referring to my husband and children. I am talking about my sister's and brother and their families. There was once a time when we were all so close, seeing each other often and talking even more. I don't know how to fix it or if it is even my place to. Maybe this is the normal progression of things. Does spending time together just remind us of what we've lost. Is that why it is just easier to let time pass with not so much as even a phone call? I would like to say I'm not bitter but that would be a...

I will be teaching a class on how to make this sweet angel at the Paper Crown on Saturday, May 7th from 12-4. Come join us for an afternoon of wonderful creative fun. Call Paper Crown to sign up.   (405) 848-2389

I had a great time at Ann-Denise's class today at the Paper Crown. The gals there are so sweet. We made this adorable vintage looking Easter bucket. Sooo cute. I will post pics tomorrow. Nighty Night. P.S. My husband is pretty amazing. He watched our daughter all day so I could take the class and is always so supportive. I keep telling him that all the money I spend now on art supplies and such is one day going to pay off. Let's hope I'm right.

I am so excited to be teaching my first class on Thursday, April 14th  at the Paper Crown! The project is a 10x20 mixed media canvas. I dropped the sample off today and forgot to take a picture of it, so I will post a  pic later. It should be up on their site soon. There is a link on the right side of the page. Stop by. Cindy has some of the cutest paper art supplies. Love, love, love that store. Just ask my husband.

I am so excited and blessed to have such a sweet mother in law. She has been a seamstress for like forever and I have been so wanting to find some vintage patterns for my art, so I called her up and she had a big box full that she said I could have. Between the caffeine buzz from too much coffee and the news of the vintage patterns I had an adrenaline rush all morning. Is it crazy to get so excited about old patterns? I don't know if it is or not, but I am. I cannot wait to go through them and start working with them in my art! I'll post some pics of them tomorrow. Some of them are really old. Thanks, Neva!