Monday, March 27, 2017

Aha Moments

I'm still painting intuitively. I start something with no expectations as to what the end result might be. This is one of those paintings. I am completely embracing color. This one might be my favorite so far in this process. We are discussing mindfulness in my class and learning to always look for inspiration. It truly is everywhere. You just have to be aware and be still long enough, and it will find you.

Wednesday, March 22, 2017

My Shield



I am fortunate to be involved in a creativity group facillitator training led by the amazing Jill Badonsky and we have learned how important it is to protect ourselves and our creative passions. This is part of that process for me. You can't see it but etched on this girl's heart (my heart) it says God is within her. She will not fall. In an earlier post I explained how powerful this verse is for me. It doesn't mean I won't mess up. It means I trust God to catch me when I do. I'm listening for his cues and painting for him. I'm trying so hard to put my ego aside because it will truly never be satisfied. I think it was in the book Big Magic that the author, I know her last name is Gilbert, said "There will never be enough of what you don't need." That hit my heart hard. Anyway, the creative process is absolutely beautiful for me right now. I hope it sticks. I pray it does. What is your passion?

Saturday, March 18, 2017

God is within her, she will not fall; God will help her at break of day. Psalm 46:5

I love this verse. There is so much power in these words. It doesn't say "She might not" or "Maybe she won't." It says "She will not fall." The reason she doesn't fall is because God catches her when she trips or messes up. It is not of her own doing that she stands firm or that I seem to stand firm. He holds me up in times when my legs are weak and shaky and my spirit feels broken. I am grateful for His love and grace.

I have learned that artists are sensitive people. I'm not alone. Whew! Things seem to go straight to my heart. That's happened a lot this past year and I have grown from the experiences. I have learned that there are people that get me and there are people that don't and that's ok. It is what it is. God (my bodyguard) gets me. He made me and he made me this way for a reason. He made me sensitive so I could help someone hurting. He made me passionate so I would fight for what I feel is right. I know there have been times when I've said things after being hurt that He wishes I would have handled differently but He still loves me and holds me up. I am learning. I am trying to be more mindful. I am growing and growing is good.